Sun is shining so I am just off for a walk. My voice can only cope with about two minutes of conversation before I cough and splutter. Tumour on the lung produces these symptoms. I am OK as long as people aren't nice to me. A couple of phone calls made me choke but it is good to cry because people are being kind and thoughtful. When the GP first said, 'it could be lung cancer' I remember thinking, 'is it that simple? Is that how devastating news is delivered?'. As I left the surgery the kind, young doctor said 'all the best, hope things work out.' Seemed strange, doctors don't normally say that, he knew the signs were not good. Husband and son so thoughtful and supportive, I am blessed how many people go through something like this without such a loving family.

God's grace is sufficient

Four weeks ago the doctor explained I had a shadow on my lung and it could be cancer. I didn't believe it could be the case and so was quite relaxed. Never smoked, fit, just a persistent cough. A CT scan later and the experts say it is cancer. Shock, numbness, peace and calm. Timing seems all wrong. New team, fresh start everything looking positive - but there you go much worse things happen to people every day. My family are being amazing and friends have made our home look like a florist. A helpful comment received today 'if you want the peace that passes all understanding you may have to give up your rights to understand'. More of what we have processed so far and what is ahead to follow.

Today the sun is shining

A good day, despite medical problems it feels like a good day. It could be shock or denial, but enjoy the good days for what they are a gift from God.